emotions, blessings, and more

So I have been home (at my parents house) from the hospital for 1 week today.  Each day I am a little better than the day before.  I wish I could say I have handled this situation with a lot of grace, but that has not always been the case.  Being bound to a bed in a house for a week has been challenging physically and emotionally.  Dealing with insurance issues has already begun to frustrate me.  Processing the fact that I will not get to go back to Kenya in November has brought a ton of sadness.  It has been a week filled with emotion.  The most seen emotions were frustration, confusion, anger, pain, and sadness.  It has been hard and I have been wrestling with the Lord having many conversations about how to adjust the things that I planned for next few months.  

The wrestling isn't bad and I know I will still get to do many of the things that have been in the plans for the past few months.  While these things be put on hold for a bit, life will move on and I will still get to go back to Kenya and work with the NEEMA girls, I will get to move into my new role doing full-time global missions, and God will remain faithful in providing in a variety of ways along the way.  

There have been so many blessings throughout this week.  My parents have opened their home to care for me (their 32 year old daughter).  My mother has prepared every meal and made sure I have taken my medications, and taken me to my doctors appointments.  My dad made me popcorn so that I could celebrate the season premiere of my favorite show with a little party in my room.  They have sacrificed their alone time to keep me company and make sure I keep improving.  People have sent cards and flowers, get well packages, phone calls and emails offering encouragement and support.  The Lord has been faithful in allowing me to improve a bit more day by day.  Old friends, who I rarely see, have stopped by the house to keep me company and catch up on life.  I have been able to see my grandparents, my sister and her family more than usual.  There have been NO COMPLICATIONS since leaving the hospital.  I am back on my feet, walking a little more each day.  

THANK YOU for all of you who have walked through this with me.  My mind is a bit more settled today and I am thankful that I am on my way back to a semi-normal life.  My hope is to be back in West Chester next week (walking, sitting, driving....).....BIG PRAYERS!  I have another followup appointment with my doctor this week and am hoping to receive more good news.

I will continue to keep you updated on where I am heading next.  For now, I will remain at my parent's peaceful home, in my beautiful blue room, with the fall breeze blowing through the windows, praying, processing, and making decisions about my next steps.

Once again...feel free to contact me if you have questions.

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